http://mamadharma.net one single mother. one spririted preschooler. oy -- what a life. Wed, 12 Oct 2011 17:24:46 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en Google "I hate married people" and the first thing that comes up is this post. My heart does break at the comments I get from folks who Google this phrase, so acute is their loneliness and resentment at the wedded. (I am so sorry to those to whom I have not ... http://mamadharma.net/2011/01/revisiting-i-hate-married-people/ It has been 365 days since I have been out on a date, or even remotely pursued anything with men. It was a conscious choice I made last year, after a long string of bad decisions, near fatal attractions, a glut of embarrassingly adolescent behavior, and much scraping my heart ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/12/the-end-of-an-era/ My grandmother is dying. This is the woman who raised me from the age of five years old. For years, I criticized her. I blamed her for a lot of things that I felt were wrong with my life. It's strange. In the face of her dying, all of that has ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/10/the-persistence-of-stinkbugs/ I was supposed to fly out yesterday for a work conference in LA. The day before I left, I got a call: my 88 year-old grandmother had collapsed and was in the hospital in San Diego. Immediately, I shared this information with my boss and she said to me, "go ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/small-miracles/ "I'm sad," S said plaintively as we drove home from an errand tonight. "Why are you sad, honey?" "One is not enough." As I asked questions to get more out of him, it became clear that he meant that *I* am not enough. I'm not being paranoid here. He literally rattled off the ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/one-is-not-enough/ Divorce tears apart so many things. Two relationships that I have continued to mourn: the loss of a sister-in-law and a stepson. I was close to the both of them - as close as you can be when they live in another country. I immediately felt comfortable around my ex sister-in-law, from ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/ex-sister-in-law/ I have this recurring dream. It's variations on a theme - the theme of my ex and I getting back together. In the dream, it's just the two of us, and he is looking at me in that way, with great love in his eyes. We have sex. "I missed you," I ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/mistakes-are-just-opportunities-to-learn/ S comes home from school the other day with a card, on which he proudly proclaims that he has drawn "Grandma and Grandpa." Then I open his backpack and see the dreaded newsletter: "Grandparents' Day! We are encouraging students to invite their Grandparents (or Grandparent-like person) to school with them..." My ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/grandparents-day/ Lately, I have been feeling really insecure about my huge half-sleeve tattoo. I guess that means I'm not as cool or cutting-edge as I'd like to think I am. When I got it in spring 2009, yes I was a "mature" woman of 33, but I was also not in the ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/would-you-date-a-single-mom-with-a-big-ass-tattoo/ Over two years after my divorce, I am still moving through grief. It feels like quicksand sometimes...I make some headway, and then a little (or big) thing will just set me back into the mire. Then I slowly go about the business of climbing out again. Recently, a somewhat big thing ... http://mamadharma.net/2010/09/moving-through-the-storm/